We are getting closer!

As I sit here and think back 17 weeks it really feels like just yesterday. It seems like just yesterday Bryan and I sat in the ultrasound room and received the scary and exciting news.  I remember coming home from our appointment and sitting down in Lyla's playroom and telling Bryan's mom about this crazy situation.  I remember her saying "you have to wait 2 more weeks to find out?" (at the time we were waiting to confirm they were momo's).  At the time 2 weeks seemed like an eternity.  After that we lived in 2 week increments.  We saw the Dr. for an ultrasound every 2 weeks.  I would speak in terms like "if I make it to xx weeks" or "if I am blessed to make it that far". Well, here I am.  I am THAT far along.  I am here in the hospital and I passed my first milestone.  This Friday I will be 30 weeks and that is another nice number.  I will be out of the twenties and it just sounds nicer to me :).  This is becoming more and more real.  I no longer think about the scary what ifs of not bringing one or both of the babies home.  I now think about what it will be like when they are are born and how their NICU experience will be.  So I realize I have graduated in my confidence and that feels good.  So that relief that I referred to in my first post, that I was so desperately looking for... I think I am finally finding it!  As a mother though I will not rest well until I know they are healthy and safe. 

Mini updates:
~My contractions are under control right now and still painless so that is good.
~I forgot to say in my last post that I passed my 3 hour glucose test so no Gestational Diabetes for me! Yay!
~ I weighed myself today... hahaha I have officially passed the weight I gained my entire pregnancy with Lyla.  So 8+ weeks earlier I am 6lbs heavier.  I wonder if I did make it full term how much weight I would gain.  It is nice and fun to see! I don't mind gaining the weight one bit.  It is encouraging to think that maybe the babies are growing bigger.  I certainly don't look huge although I can feel I am carrying around that extra weight.  Sometimes it is hard for me to get around.  I told my friend the other day that I feel like a log with feet! lol
~Friday Bryan and I get to tour the NICU.  I am strangely excited about it.  I hope I leave there feeling encouraged rather than discouraged.
~ I had an ultrasound today and all looked good and boring! 

I have another ultrasound on Friday and they will check the growth.  If the babies (especially the smaller one) are growing well then we have a decision to make.  I will be nearing the 32 week mark and we must soon decide if we will deliver at 32 weeks or closer to 34 weeks.  Originally I was really wanting to wait to 34 weeks.  Now, I think I just want then out and safe even if that means a 32 week delivery. 

So, prayers prayers prayers please that Friday's appointment is uneventful and joyful.  Although that will make our 32-34 week delivery a harder decision it is one I welcome.  I don't ever want to be in a position where things are bad and we must deliver sooner rather than later.